this morning

This morning I awoke to this amazing blue sky.

But I wanted to share that last night I had awoken in the night feeling unusually panicked, about christmas. A few, probably, slightly unfounded worries and the general worry about last posting days and such like.

It wasn't pleasant, heart racing with what ifs and what have yous! it's a shame to feel like this and I don't really know where it came from. Not having mastered a zen like approach to it, possibly my approach is to slightly ignore it, and then when it gets suitably close, freak out about the responsibility of it!

So with a slightly shaken demeanour this morning and not feeling quite hardy enough for the windy common I set out to visit the trees in the park. The blue sky and bright sunshine was just what I needed, soaking up all that vitamin D on my face!

and oh I was definitely seeking strength from this mighty British Oak tree here. Not quite tree hugging! but in much appreciation. This awesome trunk must measure at least 2 metres around, and has weathered many christmases. A truly strong tree!

I wonder how old? ....hundreds of years, maybe even 500 years old.

As I walked the stress began to fall away. Just breathing out in the fresh air and space. I need this so much.

The beautiful light over the pond and the swans. Isn't it magical?

Walking up past the museum in the park. Imagine when it was a stately home with it's own grounds and lake.

                                   

Up through the Canadian pines, I love these trees,
.....it all helped.

This evening I wondered through the town, the last half and hour of opening time, so lovely and calm.
I saw the christmas trees lit up inside the church, they even let me bring my dog in! It was a quiet and magical atmosphere inside. I hope I can carry some of this feeling through advent.

What about you,
How are you feeling today? are you okay?