Friday, 12 September 2014

Summers end

It's taken me all summer to finally pick up my crochet hook. I was a little wary of being pulled in to something new. (What about all those wips for starters?). I found my way back in with Hannapat's monthly mandalong. Following the pattern here. This was fun, I keep admiring it. Simple things! Simple pleasures.

mini granny mandala
The summers end for us as well as the beginning of a new school year has always meant a birthday. This boy of mine who was born when the sunflowers were opening and who has indeed always been willowy and fair, and now almost a head taller than me. And who I now have to look up towards to wag my finger at. Although this practice works no longer in fact it may not have worked at all. Negotiation and de-escalation has now taken it's place.

time for sunflowers
The sunflowers have been brought. The presents are secretly wrapped. I love this wrapping. It reminds me of the colouring books I loved and my felt tips. I would spend hours colouring in those patterns.

sunflower boy is 16!
As I type I realize there is probably lots to bring you up to date with. This year we are beginning a new regime. It's called Hope training. A local project run by The Door youth project. I have been worrying about it all summer. It means stepping away from the secondary education system, which for one reason and another hasn't really worked for us. So it's quite a plunge. But it seems like a positive place, where they meet you, where you are actually at. A place to be accepted and acknowledged for who you are and to build up confidence. It's a big letting go of a system that hasn't been able to meet our needs and stepping into our own path. Officially we will be counted as home-schoolers, although at this stage I wouldn't really have wanted to consider that without this project in place.

Sixteen feels good though. So grown up suddenly. I keep thinking about this sweet little blond boy I used to know. It's been such a journey.

I had to adapt this card to say sixteen, you can see why! We do love Jack Russels around here.

dreaming of chasing rabbits
Todays snooze took place here, in the lovely warm sunny boot room. I really quite envied her. It's a dogs life. Thrifted blankets are her favourite too.

Just above her is a chalk board, I found it being thrown out. Of course I rescued it, knocked out the rusty that nail which was probably making it rather unchild friendly, and decided to hang it here where I plan to change the saying regularly. 'Let the heavy stuff go' Was really rather appropriate to the two days I spent last weekend clearing out the garage. I exhausted myself, the garage is almost empty and this is the kind of thing I do when I am worrying about things it seems. I think there is a lot of letting go going on at the moment to. Might be time to change it soon though!

I seem to have a lot to say.......

Can I just show you this.

a special card wallet from Kingsley leather on Etsy
The wonderful Kingsley from Kingsley Leather made this. Kingsley is credited with starting the Crafters of Gloucestershire Etsy group. It's a great idea, bringing the local crafters together. He makes funky leather bow ties as well different kinds of wallets/purses too. He is our group leader. I have to resist the urge to sing Kingsley is our leader, Kingsley is our leader, la la la la , la la la la hey! ....... when I speak to him! It's a very cute handmade slim leather card wallet. It's very light, just right for sixteen I hope. I love the red stitching, it called me! and the lion stamp. I hope he won't lose it. It's a great size for tucking in your jeans, perhaps with a little cash and a card inside. It goes very quickly at sixteen that's for sure.

sunflower embroidery by my Mum
Well I'm glad to be able to have a catch up. Hope September is going well for you all.

sweet nectar
and life is good.


Sunday, 7 September 2014

Moved by the immovable.....

This image has stayed with me. An almost Iconic image I think. Barrack Obama's spontaneous visit to Stonehenge on Friday after being at the Nato talks in Wales. It's a powerful image. A powerful man in a powerful place.

I hope he felt drawn here because these Stones needed to impart their wisdom to him. I do believe these stones hold the consciousness and energy of ancient wisdom. Call me cuckoo if you like. He needed to be here. It's important. He carries a powerful weight on his shoulders. 

It makes me think of times I have felt drawn to visiting ancient sites like these. Avebury, Glastonbury Tor, The Ring of Brodgar in Orkney, are the ones I can think of. These places stay with you, continue to work with you. I can think of monumentous life events that have followed visits like these. I believe they are strengthening places for the times ahead. Of course Stonehenge is like no other. He was able to wonder amongst the stones, touch them, feel them, be in awe of them. I wonder if the magnitude and presence of being with them helped him some how. I think so.

You can see him here. Didn't the Raffle family have a great day out!

Moved by the immovable..... Perhaps he felt some solidarity with these stones.

I feel a visit may be needed sometime soon..... A little mission to visit somewhere powerful.....a little re-charge, if I dare.....because I know how powerful that movement in your soul can be.....


Monday, 18 August 2014

slaying the dragon......

It's a funny thing coming here today. I wanted to catch the thought of this strange, or perhaps not so strange idea of a double edge sword I find myself travelling along. I love this visual place of ideas and inspiration. I could honestly say that most of the things I do or aspire to do have sprung from this online world, over the last couple of years. For me inspiration is what moves me. Really quite literally.

But the truth of the matter is this.......,
as I look around I can see quite clearly what I'm not.
I'm not saying this is a bad thing.
Maybe it's a very necessary thing. Maybe it's helps with right now.

you see I'm not creating a blog which is stampeding along.
I'm not running a busy on-line shop.
I'm not on a weight loss programme.
Or jogging, or stretching. 
I'm not going on lots of family days out. 
I'm not making or designing anything.
I'm not cooking interesting things. Or baking.
I'm not doing a 30 day anything.
I am not being radical.
I'm not having enough positive discussions about what's going to happen in September either. 
I not sure what it is I am doing.
but it seems to take up most my time.

Actually I've been rather good at letting the comparison dragon, take over today, and it's kind of blocking me from connecting to be honest.....or honestly connecting!

and I need to slay it. 

Self-acceptance come out come out wherever you are!


Thursday, 14 August 2014

oh ladies of the friday flea.....

vintage linens
Oh ladies of the friday flea, we do love you so, especially when you say 20p an item!

Please excuse the random photos in this post. I managed to lose all my holiday photos, before I could even look at them.....which can only mean I will need to go back there one day. I was looking forward to showing you the lovely beach at Durdles Door and reliving the lovely heatwave dip in the sea..... But not the treacherous climb to the beach!.....I think I'm okay with it, I have to let them go, although I'm trying to persuade the teen to get some of his instagram photos printed.

It's just another sign that I need a new camera and to try and hustle that up to the top of the list. Sometimes we just have to work with what we've got.

vintage hangers - I know what I'm going to do with these!
So I am back, and hello again. I didn't plan on it being such a long break, but somehow the loss of the photos seemed to leave my blog at the last post about the seven mile peace scarf for several weeks. Somehow I feel like it was the least I could do. I wish I had supported Jaine of Beeswax and Broomsticks more in her Wool against weapons quest.

The last 18 months or so for her must have been hugely challenging. I'm sure she would have felt as though her life had been taken over by this scarf. I confess when she told me about it I felt that it was just too much to make happen..... But she did it..... I can only look on in awe at the level of commitment that must have taken. How do you get 6,000 pieces of one metre length scarf made and sent to you?!.... You can see a 5 minute film of the day the scarf was rolled out here. Didn't they do well.

vintage embroidery brooch
Before my holiday I made a few embroidery brooches. I have decided it's all together easier to chop up napkins, rather than large table cloths, and that it would probably be fun to learn to embroider a few myself. Brooches that is not tablecloths.

vintage letter stamps
I'm looking forward to using these again. I'm still very much hoping to put more energy into my shop. For me this summer has been more about shuffling things around at home, fixing broken things (or finding someone who can!) summer jobs. The eternal quest to de-clutter. Making home, it's so very important to me.

blue bird toffees
So I'm glad I managed the summer holiday mission with the teen. He agreed to come. We both tried. It's hard to please a nearly 16 year old who wants to hang out and a Mum who wants to gallavant around the countryside having little coastal adventures! compromises were made. Maybe a little bit of new ground was found too. A bit of a space from the uncertainty that has surrounded us. I can see this newly growing up teenager now another year older and pretty grown up sometimes, becoming more ready to step into some new possibilties in a stronger way. The ground is feeling pretty solid beneath our feet right. I am so thankful really. Sometimes life can seem a little quiet. But I think quiet and steady is what we need right now.

It's great to say hi again. Thanks for coming by. Hope to catch up more soon. X


Saturday, 19 July 2014

a 7 mile long pink peace scarf

Okay, I've finally done this!.....this is my 1 metre crochet section of a 7 mile pink peace scarf.

I wanted to do this, but I hit a fair amount of resistance in my self. I think it may have been the pink and the long list of other things which I want to make!. Although once I realized it would be okay, and not breaking any rules (whose rules anyway!) to put a colourful granny square in the middle, I was off.

and once totally immersed in the pink, I really quite enjoyed it, especially next to all the other colours. I'll be sorry to see it go. But it's off for a good cause.

photo from the wool against weapons site.
On the 9th August this year, a seven mile long pink knitted peace scarf will be rolled out to stretch between two nuclear sites at Aldermaston and Burghfield in Berkshire. The scarf is a protest to put pressure on the government to ditch the planned 80 billion pound spend renewing the trident nuclear weapons programme. You can find out more about this at

This project is the brain child of Jaine and you can read about the beginning of this project here on her blog Beeswax and broomsticks.

In the end it was my commitment to doing this that carried me through. This really is the last call.

Editied to add: I forgot to say that the after the event the scarf pieces will stitched together and made into around 2000 blankets, which will be sent to well needed places. Now isn't that a thing!

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I will be away from my patch for the next little while.

hazy summer morning on the common
I'm off to dip my toes in the Dorset sea.

surprised to find this patch of pretty harebells yesterday.
I'm looking forwarding to taking in some of those lovely Jurrasic views. I have walked some of the South west coast path here. A few years ago now. One day I will continue my walk. I remember it was beautiful, exhilarating, scary and bloody knackering! I carried my rucksack and tent, and little dog was with me on the lead. I stopped at Chesil beach after several days, I couldn't carry my pack anymore! I will travel very light next time..... I'm looking forward to seeing it again and remembering the adventure. Catch up soon.


Friday, 11 July 2014

finding some more time.......

I might seriously have found some more time in my day! I quite simply to do not turn on my technology until later in the day! For me it is making a huge difference......there are so many things I would like to be doing and also need to be doing to feel good.
my first page of my new moleskin journal!
This week I have began my day sitting at my table. I have began my new scrapbook journal. I hope it will lead me to some summer magic and relaxed adventures! I treated myself to this Moleskin journal. I spent so long looking at them in the shop the shop assistant may have wondered what I was up to.....I'm happy I splurged finally ♥ ♥ ♥ .

ready to collage
A nice thing to do in the morning. A little bit here and a little bit there. Some water-colour, and different bits and pieces to stick. I have some more pictures and words at the ready.

favourite museli
So no more balancing breakfast over the key board, for now!.... These english rose strawberries are really the treat of the week. Delicious and aromatic...... real strawberries I think. A healthy burst vitamins, I could eat these all day.

So I suddenly felt as though I had more time......I even did some stretching. My goodness journalling, stretching, time to think about what I wanted to do with my little red suitcase! I think I will need to be here less, and spend more time making in the 'shop'. Which I have also actually been doing!!.....can this really be my day!

my new in the shop today picture
I have a few ideas swimming around, making new brooches and some new card ideas. I really want to make the time to do this. This was my Mum's red tyrolean apron. (We had several tyrolean adventures when I was little). I think it goes. Definitely very my little red suitcase..... I have had lots of new ideas lately. I think she is guiding me.

treasures on my window sill
Here are my windowsill treasures. These are wild sweet peas from the garden. My Mum loved sweet peas and she loved Sidmouth (you can see in the picture) and she loved me and her grandson. And we loved her and we loved Sidmouth and I love all the things I have that remind me of her. I love this little space here and all that it means to me.

pretty pink geraniums
Inside my home I'm enjoying these bright pink geraniums.

in the yard
and outside home, I'm enjoying seeing this purple in the yard.

blue sky
Our days on the common are glorious. The sky has been oh so blue. It's a real heavenly delight up here right now.

summer grasses
Summer grasses on the hill top. Our walks have been earlier and felt fresher. It's really nice to get out earlier.

thrifted denim jacket
A spot of thrifting......I think I'm on a roll. A denim jacket. It's about 20 years since I wore my last one.....and it feels great, like second skin..... and do I care?!....I don't think so. It's just asking to be decorated by brooches and badges. This is a vintage resin brooch, which belonged to my Mum. Yes she liked red, it was her favourite colour.

vintage resin brooch
There, lovely. Just right. I've been wanting to wear this for a while. I love it with the denim :-) 

So there you can see me with a bit more time to enjoy my things.

It's all there for us to do. Our nice things are waiting for us. We can find time......forgive me if I'm not around quite so much.

I'm also trying to end the day technology free too. This is all really quite different for me. I find myself thinking about you instead.

Just trying to make the space for some new loves and old loves. Hope to catch up with you soon.



Wednesday, 2 July 2014

a few healthy summer things!

mean green juice
This is good! I've made a couple of these and have the ingredients for more in my fridge. I haven't done any juicing for a long time. This tastes zingy and healthy, and if I say here now that I will be drinking this later, I hope to stick to it! I found my way to this inspiring post from tales of ted and agnes, watched the film and found the recipe. If you want to try it follow this reciepe :-

                                      a bunch of kale,
                                      4 celery sticks,
                                      1 cucumber,
                                      2 granny smith apples,
                                      half a peeled lemon,
                                      ginger root.

Feels seriously healthy!

flowers from the garden
Remembering to pick flowers from the garden and bring them inside. It's all nice now, include some herbs if you can. I must try out some herbal teas, home made style. Yesterday I forwent my daily coffee. I have been feeling quite caffeined out in the last few days. Time to remember to drink some summer drinks instead of endless teas!

remember to breathe!
Yes, breathing is always a good thing.....especially after too much coffee....!
Oh and did I mention mercury has been retrograde for the last couple of weeks, please don't ask me to explain, because I don't think I can! but as the planet of communication, you may have found yourself talking utter codswallop. That should end and we will can all start making sense again!

thrifted sandals = happy toes
If you don't like toes, look away now!................

Thrifted sandals, love the little cross stitch. I'm very chuffed, almost new, my toes are very happy in these.

Happy little pink piggies........sorry!

homemade tick repellent
I have made a tick repellent. There really are a lot of these nasties around this year. Be careful walking through long grass, meadows and woodland. Cover up if you can or wear a repellent. There is a lot of talk of Lymes being spread, and this not a nice illness. It can be treated early if you notice a bite with a rash or white ring around it and have flu like symptoms with a course of anti-biotics. I found this natural tick repellent here. Apparently the ticks really dislike rose geranium. Thankfully I do like it and I have also added a few drops of lavender. I spray my legs before I go for a walk and also the dog. It makes a lovely feel good spray mist. Not for babies and cats though.

my view of the valley
I feel there may be some kind of pause here. The need to kick back and relax is there, as well as all the summer cleaning and maintenance chores which are calling. I've been having a little jig around here and would like to carry on straightening things up a bit, having a bit of tidy in all the places I seem to find myself, technology wise! I would also like to put more attention to my shop and grow this. There is only so long that is comfortable to be sitting in front of a screen in the summer I think. The need to move and stretch out a bit more is definitely calling.

I must tell you, this bag has become my summer outfit and I am really loving it. It's just adding that bit of summer brightness that I need. There may be no going back now. Homemade and handmade is the way forward. Dig out those vintage linens and create!

Hope you manage to kick back with some healthy moments, find a colourful rug and enjoy a summer view from somewhere,  drink long summer drinks. Breathe out. X

Everyone should carefully observe which way his heart draws him, and then choose that way with all his strength.
Hasidic saying