Monday, 18 August 2014

slaying the dragon......

It's a funny thing coming here today. I wanted to catch the thought of this strange, or perhaps not so strange idea of a double edge sword I find myself travelling along. I love this visual place of ideas and inspiration. I could honestly say that most of the things I do or aspire to do have sprung from this online world, over the last couple of years. For me inspiration is what moves me. Really quite literally.

But the truth of the matter is this.......,
as I look around I can see quite clearly what I'm not.
I'm not saying this is a bad thing.
Maybe it's a very necessary thing. Maybe it's helps with right now.

you see I'm not creating a blog which is stampeding along.
I'm not running a busy on-line shop.
I'm not on a weight loss programme.
Or jogging, or stretching. 
I'm not going on lots of family days out. 
I'm not making or designing anything.
I'm not cooking interesting things. Or baking.
I'm not doing a 30 day anything.
I am not being radical.
I'm not having enough positive discussions about what's going to happen in September either. 
I not sure what it is I am doing.
but it seems to take up most my time.

Actually I've been rather good at letting the comparison dragon, take over today, and it's kind of blocking me from connecting to be honest.....or honestly connecting!

and I need to slay it. 

Self-acceptance come out come out wherever you are!


Thursday, 14 August 2014

oh ladies of the friday flea.....

vintage linens
Oh ladies of the friday flea, we do love you so, especially when you say 20p an item!

Please excuse the random photos in this post. I managed to lose all my holiday photos, before I could even look at them.....which can only mean I will need to go back there one day. I was looking forward to showing you the lovely beach at Durdles Door and reliving the lovely heatwave dip in the sea..... But not the treacherous climb to the beach!.....I think I'm okay with it, I have to let them go, although I'm trying to persuade the teen to get some of his instagram photos printed.

It's just another sign that I need a new camera and to try and hustle that up to the top of the list. Sometimes we just have to work with what we've got.

vintage hangers - I know what I'm going to do with these!
So I am back, and hello again. I didn't plan on it being such a long break, but somehow the loss of the photos seemed to leave my blog at the last post about the seven mile peace scarf for several weeks. Somehow I feel like it was the least I could do. I wish I had supported Jaine of Beeswax and Broomsticks more in her Wool against weapons quest.

The last 18 months or so for her must have been hugely challenging. I'm sure she would have felt as though her life had been taken over by this scarf. I confess when she told me about it I felt that it was just too much to make happen..... But she did it..... I can only look on in awe at the level of commitment that must have taken. How do you get 6,000 pieces of one metre length scarf made and sent to you?!.... You can see a 5 minute film of the day the scarf was rolled out here. Didn't they do well.

vintage embroidery brooch
Before my holiday I made a few embroidery brooches. I have decided it's all together easier to chop up napkins, rather than large table cloths, and that it would probably be fun to learn to embroider a few myself. Brooches that is not tablecloths.

vintage letter stamps
I'm looking forward to using these again. I'm still very much hoping to put more energy into my shop. For me this summer has been more about shuffling things around at home, fixing broken things (or finding someone who can!) summer jobs. The eternal quest to de-clutter. Making home, it's so very important to me.

blue bird toffees
So I'm glad I managed the summer holiday mission with the teen. He agreed to come. We both tried. It's hard to please a nearly 16 year old who wants to hang out and a Mum who wants to gallavant around the countryside having little coastal adventures! compromises were made. Maybe a little bit of new ground was found too. A bit of a space from the uncertainty that has surrounded us. I can see this newly growing up teenager now another year older and pretty grown up sometimes, becoming more ready to step into some new possibilties in a stronger way. The ground is feeling pretty solid beneath our feet right. I am so thankful really. Sometimes life can seem a little quiet. But I think quiet and steady is what we need right now.

It's great to say hi again. Thanks for coming by. Hope to catch up more soon. X


Saturday, 19 July 2014

a 7 mile long pink peace scarf

Okay, I've finally done this!.....this is my 1 metre crochet section of a 7 mile pink peace scarf.

I wanted to do this, but I hit a fair amount of resistance in my self. I think it may have been the pink and the long list of other things which I want to make!. Although once I realized it would be okay, and not breaking any rules (whose rules anyway!) to put a colourful granny square in the middle, I was off.

and once totally immersed in the pink, I really quite enjoyed it, especially next to all the other colours. I'll be sorry to see it go. But it's off for a good cause.

photo from the wool against weapons site.
On the 9th August this year, a seven mile long pink knitted peace scarf will be rolled out to stretch between two nuclear sites at Aldermaston and Burghfield in Berkshire. The scarf is a protest to put pressure on the government to ditch the planned 80 billion pound spend renewing the trident nuclear weapons programme. You can find out more about this at

This project is the brain child of Jaine and you can read about the beginning of this project here on her blog Beeswax and broomsticks.

In the end it was my commitment to doing this that carried me through. This really is the last call.

Editied to add: I forgot to say that the after the event the scarf pieces will stitched together and made into around 2000 blankets, which will be sent to well needed places. Now isn't that a thing!

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I will be away from my patch for the next little while.

hazy summer morning on the common
I'm off to dip my toes in the Dorset sea.

surprised to find this patch of pretty harebells yesterday.
I'm looking forwarding to taking in some of those lovely Jurrasic views. I have walked some of the South west coast path here. A few years ago now. One day I will continue my walk. I remember it was beautiful, exhilarating, scary and bloody knackering! I carried my rucksack and tent, and little dog was with me on the lead. I stopped at Chesil beach after several days, I couldn't carry my pack anymore! I will travel very light next time..... I'm looking forward to seeing it again and remembering the adventure. Catch up soon.


Friday, 11 July 2014

finding some more time.......

I might seriously have found some more time in my day! I quite simply to do not turn on my technology until later in the day! For me it is making a huge difference......there are so many things I would like to be doing and also need to be doing to feel good.
my first page of my new moleskin journal!
This week I have began my day sitting at my table. I have began my new scrapbook journal. I hope it will lead me to some summer magic and relaxed adventures! I treated myself to this Moleskin journal. I spent so long looking at them in the shop the shop assistant may have wondered what I was up to.....I'm happy I splurged finally ♥ ♥ ♥ .

ready to collage
A nice thing to do in the morning. A little bit here and a little bit there. Some water-colour, and different bits and pieces to stick. I have some more pictures and words at the ready.

favourite museli
So no more balancing breakfast over the key board, for now!.... These english rose strawberries are really the treat of the week. Delicious and aromatic...... real strawberries I think. A healthy burst vitamins, I could eat these all day.

So I suddenly felt as though I had more time......I even did some stretching. My goodness journalling, stretching, time to think about what I wanted to do with my little red suitcase! I think I will need to be here less, and spend more time making in the 'shop'. Which I have also actually been doing!!.....can this really be my day!

my new in the shop today picture
I have a few ideas swimming around, making new brooches and some new card ideas. I really want to make the time to do this. This was my Mum's red tyrolean apron. (We had several tyrolean adventures when I was little). I think it goes. Definitely very my little red suitcase..... I have had lots of new ideas lately. I think she is guiding me.

treasures on my window sill
Here are my windowsill treasures. These are wild sweet peas from the garden. My Mum loved sweet peas and she loved Sidmouth (you can see in the picture) and she loved me and her grandson. And we loved her and we loved Sidmouth and I love all the things I have that remind me of her. I love this little space here and all that it means to me.

pretty pink geraniums
Inside my home I'm enjoying these bright pink geraniums.

in the yard
and outside home, I'm enjoying seeing this purple in the yard.

blue sky
Our days on the common are glorious. The sky has been oh so blue. It's a real heavenly delight up here right now.

summer grasses
Summer grasses on the hill top. Our walks have been earlier and felt fresher. It's really nice to get out earlier.

thrifted denim jacket
A spot of thrifting......I think I'm on a roll. A denim jacket. It's about 20 years since I wore my last one.....and it feels great, like second skin..... and do I care?!....I don't think so. It's just asking to be decorated by brooches and badges. This is a vintage resin brooch, which belonged to my Mum. Yes she liked red, it was her favourite colour.

vintage resin brooch
There, lovely. Just right. I've been wanting to wear this for a while. I love it with the denim :-) 

So there you can see me with a bit more time to enjoy my things.

It's all there for us to do. Our nice things are waiting for us. We can find time......forgive me if I'm not around quite so much.

I'm also trying to end the day technology free too. This is all really quite different for me. I find myself thinking about you instead.

Just trying to make the space for some new loves and old loves. Hope to catch up with you soon.



Wednesday, 2 July 2014

a few healthy summer things!

mean green juice
This is good! I've made a couple of these and have the ingredients for more in my fridge. I haven't done any juicing for a long time. This tastes zingy and healthy, and if I say here now that I will be drinking this later, I hope to stick to it! I found my way to this inspiring post from tales of ted and agnes, watched the film and found the recipe. If you want to try it follow this reciepe :-

                                      a bunch of kale,
                                      4 celery sticks,
                                      1 cucumber,
                                      2 granny smith apples,
                                      half a peeled lemon,
                                      ginger root.

Feels seriously healthy!

flowers from the garden
Remembering to pick flowers from the garden and bring them inside. It's all nice now, include some herbs if you can. I must try out some herbal teas, home made style. Yesterday I forwent my daily coffee. I have been feeling quite caffeined out in the last few days. Time to remember to drink some summer drinks instead of endless teas!

remember to breathe!
Yes, breathing is always a good thing.....especially after too much coffee....!
Oh and did I mention mercury has been retrograde for the last couple of weeks, please don't ask me to explain, because I don't think I can! but as the planet of communication, you may have found yourself talking utter codswallop. That should end and we will can all start making sense again!

thrifted sandals = happy toes
If you don't like toes, look away now!................

Thrifted sandals, love the little cross stitch. I'm very chuffed, almost new, my toes are very happy in these.

Happy little pink piggies........sorry!

homemade tick repellent
I have made a tick repellent. There really are a lot of these nasties around this year. Be careful walking through long grass, meadows and woodland. Cover up if you can or wear a repellent. There is a lot of talk of Lymes being spread, and this not a nice illness. It can be treated early if you notice a bite with a rash or white ring around it and have flu like symptoms with a course of anti-biotics. I found this natural tick repellent here. Apparently the ticks really dislike rose geranium. Thankfully I do like it and I have also added a few drops of lavender. I spray my legs before I go for a walk and also the dog. It makes a lovely feel good spray mist. Not for babies and cats though.

my view of the valley
I feel there may be some kind of pause here. The need to kick back and relax is there, as well as all the summer cleaning and maintenance chores which are calling. I've been having a little jig around here and would like to carry on straightening things up a bit, having a bit of tidy in all the places I seem to find myself, technology wise! I would also like to put more attention to my shop and grow this. There is only so long that is comfortable to be sitting in front of a screen in the summer I think. The need to move and stretch out a bit more is definitely calling.

I must tell you, this bag has become my summer outfit and I am really loving it. It's just adding that bit of summer brightness that I need. There may be no going back now. Homemade and handmade is the way forward. Dig out those vintage linens and create!

Hope you manage to kick back with some healthy moments, find a colourful rug and enjoy a summer view from somewhere,  drink long summer drinks. Breathe out. X


Saturday, 21 June 2014

a peaceful summer solstice

A peaceful summer solstice to you. As the sun reaches it's most expansive time, the longest day of year is here. The outward push of energy, growth and potential has been reached and the journey inwards will begin.

I find myself strangely calm this year. I have been known to find myself feeling quite ungrounded, in the midst of all this summer doing. Over-stimulated and worn-out. The fire energies burn brightly amongst us, sparks jumping between us, inspiring us towards our own highest potential.

I feel this, and yet this year I also feel a calmness. A calmness within all the doing. The need to hold a space for myself. Something in reserve. A new place.  A new awareness of what's right for me right now.

Perhaps it's being 45. It feels like a full expansion into the summer of my life. Or perhaps it's seeing a mentor, or attending a yoga class. Or the two hours a day of hard labor in the garden. Perhaps we are over the worst of our difficulties, or maybe we are learning to just hold some balance within it.

This is honoring what I need. The inspiration and the calmness is all here. I am happy to be holding this space for myself. In future years I may feel the call to solstice revelry and summer gatherings, but right now I am glad to be feeling peaceful.  Just taking each step at a time.

Happy solstice people!
make pretty flower mandalas, enjoy the sun and nature.
Be kind.


Saturday, 14 June 2014

summery makes part 1

After last nights three hour deluge of rain, thunder and lightning, following an extremely hot day, I think we can officially declare British summertime is here.

Not that anyone is complaining, it really was rather spendid and all that water on the plants after all that heat can only be a good thing.

So it's time for me to show the first of my new summer makes. I found a couple of vintage curtains to transform. The dark blue floral fabric is some lovely Sanderson fabric. A pretty table cloth and a serviette! I based the size on a bag I already have, made some lining, added a flap and a little pocket. I feel like the bag is a cross between Cath kidston and the lovely granny chic of dottie angel. I'm not sure how either of them would actually feel about that!

Lest that sound too easy, I can assure you I had a good wrestle with the lining fabric and strap! But it somehow all found it's place.

All I need now is a dusting of granny chic bravery as I step out wearing my transformed curtains, table cloth and serviette. What's that?......oh of course, that is the whole granny chic point!

Well I do love it so I shall be brave, and today's the day.

It was so nice to use up some of this fabric, I have been collecting madly. The cross stitch on the little handy pocket, inspired some more around the flap. This is a secret pocket/label for hiding secret lists in. Lists of adventurous and brave things. And maybe a shopping list too. So wish me luck as I step out with some hopeful granny chic bravery.

Oh and Miss Trissie was very happy about it too!

Have a lovely summery weekend.

Everyone should carefully observe which way his heart draws him, and then choose that way with all his strength.
Hasidic saying