it all started when I went to sleep two nights ago. Several things happened and I realized I just felt broken-hearted. Like I could imagine having a broken heart. I felt it in the night and the next morning when I got up I accidently broke one of the hearts hanging on my fireplace.
I needed to heal my broken heart and I realized that this day (yesterday) I needed to do exactly what was right for me. So apart from making food and walking the dog, I spent the whole day curled up on the couch. A blanket, a furry hot water bottle hugged close and christmas carols playing over and over all day.
maybe the magic of a twinkling christmas tree was needed at last. It's not a real fir tree, it's a real woollies christmas tree and it does surprisingly have it's own christmassy smell!
I spent the whole day away from technology. I tried to watch tv but the chat didn't fit in.
I let the carols wash over me in a way they never have before. I may have read the tv times but honestly didn't get any further than the snowman picture! There was some crochet and looking at books later in the day reminding me who else I am.
I just stayed very quiet and steadied.......
and found some new ground........
it was like being drunk on christmas,
just sinking in the depths of it.
by the evening it was clear that the christmas fairy hadn't just been drinking tea.......
I'm glad the world didn't end yesterday, as some said it would. I have never believed that it would but I do believe we will begin to change the way we look at the world and each other.
I don't think there is any place for blame or accusation in this world anymore. We have all been part of the problem and we will all be part of the solution. There can't be any separation, we all need each other and we are all most definitely in this together!
So I wish you a happy winter solstice tonight. I hope you can follow your inner compass to a place that feels most right to you and wish for good things to come,