Wednesday, 1 January 2014

a new year, a new word

A happy new year to you all! May 2014 bring you love, warmth, creativity and many blessings on your journey. This time last year I set a word for the year as an intention to guide me through 2013. The word was clear and you can read this post here.

It's now clear to me where I need to put my energy. I talked about this in my three wishes post. It's difficult to push ahead with everything all at once, so I have to choose the most important things to me right now.

Last year I wanted to clear/simplify. Now I still live surrounded by many things, but during the year a steady flow of things no longer needed left this house. And I believe that I am bringing much less in now. I still like to move things around and shake things up. In fact one of the last things I did in my home for 2013 was shift and heave a very big desk and it's contents into a different room. I want to make a reading/writing/thinking corner in my room and create a clear craft room/creative space in another.

A have a friend who tells me that I like to have all the different aspects of my life in different boxes, and she might be right! So I have two rooms in relative chaos, and I'm looking forward to doing a final clear and sort.


My word for this year is commit. I say this a little quietly. As this may cause some squirmming to start. I know I am a responsible person, if i say I'm going to do something I will, but oh just watch me try and avoid commiting in the first place!  I'm not sure why I find committing to things so hard. It brings up a lot of fear I think. That I won't be able to manage it, or will find myself out of my depth and without a lifeboat. I count my self as a resourceful person and I believe I have been trying to stay in a very safe place. One where I won't feel over-whelmed by my commitments. It's all been about protection. I don't think this has always been understood. So I have become good at wriggling out of things, just not doing it. Don't ask me. So I've made my boundaries stronger. But perhaps squeezed some of the possibilities out in the process! and I know that I'm waffling.

So commit. Most particularly to the goals I have set and in any other ways I can. Commit to begin to open myself out in trust and belief. To know that my life and my home is a strong enough place to step from. There is strength and there has been healing. Life will catch me if I fall. To hear life say yes you can. To drive across that bridge. 

Did I mention my fear of bridges?

Well okay, one thing at a time.......

This independant, brave and fearless traveller needs to learn how to cross that bridge again, because there's a whole world out there.

Commit.

13 comments:

  1. A very Happy New Year to you, may it be one full of adventure and blessings!

    Helenxx

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  2. Happy New Year Heather! I have picked the word 'simplify' this year ... Just done a post about it in fact!

    I'm glad that word helped you through 2013 and that you left the year a little less cluttered, I'm Hoping for that too ... Commit is a good word to live by too, and I wish you luck with crossing the bridge

    Love Claire xx

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  3. A very strong word you have chosen Heather and may it light the way to you achieving your goals and taking risks to lead you to where you want to be xox Penny

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  4. Heather. I love your writing. There is so much left unsaid between the lines. We de cluttered massively a couple of years ago and it has brought a sense of relief and freedom. I constantly check the difference between a want and a need when considering bringing anything into the house. I have found the route to the Charity shop an easy and rewarding one.
    I think commit is a very good word and I hope in a years time you will reflect that it has helped make steps throughout 2014. Steps that will lead to peace and contentment x

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  5. Happy New Year, and good luck with 'commiting'.

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  6. have a wonderful new year...my word last year was simplify so similar to yours...this year i have a feeling of excitement and my word is gratitude! looking forward to following along with your story and seeing you squirm less and even run over some bridges! xxxx

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  7. Happy new year Heather, i totally get what you are saying, how beautifully you write! I am going to make my word "fearfulness", i want to learn to trust myself, that i can do certain things and i am worthy of success, best wishes jackie x

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  8. Happy 2014 Heather, wise words and as always something I can take away from them. Best wishes for the New Year. Claire xx

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  9. You're not alone when it comes to fearing commitment. I really hope you achieve all you want to this year Heather. I'll be watching from the sidelines cheering you on :)

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  10. Happy New Year!! Commit - to do, perform. to promise...awesome word. "my life and my home is a strong enough place to step from" love that! Hoping you run (or drive) across every bridge in 2014!

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  11. Sweetie you can do ANYTHING you put your mind too! Big hug :) x

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  12. This was an amazing post, I felt it coming truly from deep within your heart, and all I can say is.. As long as people stay in their comfort zone they will never grow, to truly grow is to step out and I so admire you for doing just that. You are an amazing human being Heather!
    Much love to you,
    Tammy

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